Every thing's great here in LaLa Land!

I just took a Percocet about an hour ago and so the draw to blog is pulling me! So I'll do a quick update and try to stay focused and on task: (no promises though)

I had my surgery yesterday and things seem to have gone really well, going into the operating room was so scary, there was this huge table full of torture devices (also known a surgical equipment) and so I just kept my eyes down and then when they had me on the bed I closed my eyes and I think I was out the moment they put the IV in my arm. When I woke up my first thought was "wow that guy's cute", which I think I just thought it but maybe not since he was super nice to me, even more than the female nurses were (and they were all great). It took a while to fully wake up, they gave me a cracker and some water to take a pain pill and I remember telling the lady that it was the best thing I ever tasted! When I was finally awake enough I was wheeled out to my parents (by the cute guy!) and then the nurse and anesthesiologist talked with us one more time then I was wheeled out to my dad's truck while I told the nurse the story of how I'd hurt my knee, I told anyone that would listen yesterday, I also wore my pink "Forks Outfitters" shirt and the shoes I was wearing the day of the accident as a little shout out to what'd happened. :) I know, I'm a nerd!

I am at my parents' place for the next week or so during the most difficult parts of my convalescence, I love being with my parents and they don't seem to mind taking care of me, even when I'm all doped up and super goofy. Speaking of Goofy, The Goofy Movie was on Disney or something last night we saw it was on about half way through and Adam changed to it for me. I was totally enjoying it but am a bit more spacey than normal because I forgot it was on during the commercials so when it came back on I got excited for it all over again!

Today I am very busy lying on my bed while my leg is in a machine that flexes it to get the new ACL (a cadaver Achilles tendon - I'm now part zombie!) stretched out. Today I am at 10% extension and 70% flexion, tomorrow I go down to 0% extension then I get to increase my flextion slowly until I'm at/close to full range of motion. While using the flexing machine I have this really cool pump that continuously brings ice water to a fancy covering on my leg, it feels really nice and soothing on my poor little confused leg. Most people know how stubborn and control freaky I am, and it has been so difficult to not fight against this machine but I'm getting much better, I even am able to ask people to get me things. It's taken 2 months (yesterday was day 60 since "the accident") but I have finally let go of some of my stubborn tendencies and will now let people help me without getting too frustrated with myself for not being able to do it all myself.

Update!

(First there is gonna be some exciting updates about my knee and then there is an angry rant you can ignore, but I had to get it off my chest somehow. XOXOXO)

So I went to see Dr. Badger for a second opinion on my knee because my doctor I was seeing made me very mad and Dr. Badger is our family orthopedist (how sad that we have one). He was worried about the break in my knee, the patella was smashed down on one side and he was worried about it so I went and got a CT scan to get a better look at the bone to see if it was gonna need reconstruction to fix it, a big procedure that would lead to 3 months of intense recovery! Thankfully prayers were answered and the break is in the perfect place, where it will not need the reconstruction to be done, not only this but the CT scan showed that the bones are now healed enough to do the surgery on my ACL! I am having the surgery next Wednesday and he says that I can even put some weight on my leg now before the surgery then only a few more weeks of recovery before I should be actually walking again!! I was so happy I started crying right there in the doctor's office.

I have been so worried all week waiting to hear what was gonna happen with my knee, not even wanting to talk about it but now I am so excited to finally be getting a glimpse of the light at the end of this never ending tunnel! Hopefully my work will someday forgive me for all that I have put them through, topping it off with "oh, btw, I know I was supposed to work next Wednesday but instead I'm gonna have surgery and be gone for about 3 weeks, ok?!" I have a couple more shifts before the surgery so I hope I can help make things right and actually get to say goodbye to people (coworkers and patients) before disappearing this time, unlike last time... Good times!

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(Now for the rant, avert your eyes, hide the children - the actually meanest Alldredge sister has something to say!)

There are things going on in my world that I am very angry and frustrated about but I cannot fix (thus making me even more frustrated). These are not injuries to me but to someone that I care dearly about. I cannot go into detail now but rest assured that there will come a time when those doing her wrong will realize that they made a mistake and they will get nothing but laughter and condemnation from me. You can hurt me repeatedly, I have proved over and over in my life that I will forgive you, but woe to anyone that purposefully hurts one of my loved ones! I have no physical capacity or ability to strike someone but that will not stop my angry words when all is said and done.

Stop it, fix it, or we're gonna have a little talk!!